Walkingmypath2selfdiscovery

Little by little with investigation and review the way forward is being shone clearer and clearer. It has taken a few more years of healing to get to the point where I am more confident to share. I started a job that took time to adjust. My husband and father have been in cancer treatment. Emotional issues have come up that have turned me upside down for a while. My foundation is strong, and I am moving forward. I have processed emotions I would have never known what to do with in the past. I have grown into and am accepting life as it comes more readily than when I use to think I had to control my situation. God is in control. I am blessed. I am moving forward. The dream for the future is taking place and action steps are happening. Thank you, God, for my life.

If I continue to wait until everything feels good to start, I will never start. Life will always have some feelings within that are unsettling. Evaluate life, build a strong foundation. One that represents you and you alone. Value yourself enough to take steps towards the life you dream. It awaits you if you only take action towards it. I am evaluating the steps that have worked in the past on my foundation. I have found my courage to take action for myself with the knowledge that I alone are responsible for my action. I have done the work to learn for myself and believe for myself that I am worthy, no matter what my life circumstances have been or will be. In the challenges we grow, life will always have them. With God’s help and guidance, I walk on. Learning more and more of myself as I grow older with every day, and it is all okay.

Where is my confidence in this journey? Why do a procrastinate? A new doorway opens into Trusting God, my story time begins I need only make a commitment to share it. I know things. I’ve read and searched for most of my life to find answers. Answers that are only within. My life circumstances have given me many lessons. I have a perspective all my own worth sharing. I will Make a plan. I will Stick to it. I will develop it to help others. God work within me to bring forth what others need to hear of my story. Keep me connected to developing what You have instore for me to create. Lead me, I will follow. Here I am Lord.

CREATE*CREATE*CREATE
I am a creative. Not long ago I did not see that in myself. I am on a healing journey. The process is not for the faint of heart. God has big things in the works for me. I am learning from my life. I am evaluating my journey with forgiveness and love. God’s timing and God’s way, I will share this journey. One breath at a time, one baby step at a time, it will be created!

Words have power- write it down, whatever your it is.
We all create!

New Month. New Beginning. January did not go as I thought it would, so it’s a restart today. Does this sound familiar to anyone else? I know it does. So let me just point out that at any point and time you are where you are meant to be. God is in control. His plans are different than our plans. It’s okay to start and restart and restart. I have a goal 52 posts for the year, hence the titles for my posts. I have not got a definite plan for how I will get there or what each post will be about. I am giving that over to God. I am learning about myself with each day and evolving with each day as well. I now understand that I will forever be growing and learning and evolving into the person God has instore for me, not the one I thought I’d be. This is the year I evaluate as I go forward; listen more to my heart and soul and less to my ego mind. I still will have days of trouble. I will still feel distress and cry out. I will continue to learn how to manage the trials of human existence. Illness creates hardships that take courage and strength to overcome, let downs and setbacks can destroy motivation. I currently have two very special people in my world living with cancer. Last month was challenging to stay on track with the things I planned for myself. Some things have to give, others take precedence. Relationships at the forefront of my mind, love from my heart to care for and move forward with doing what we can. I cried today. I’m sad that he is sick again. I’m sad to have plans fall apart. I’m sad that life is different than I wanted with my husband. Some days are just tearful, someday everything around me gives my eyes a reason to tear. Emotions, all-encompassing today. All over the place with thoughts. And then I turn to God, asking Him to show me “What would YOU have me know today?” and I open my Bible.
pg 1641 A quote from: The Everyday life Bible under Speak the word.
“God, I will not be anxious and troubled with cares about my life, because I know that I am very valuable to You and that You will take care of me.” [adapted from Luke 12:22-24]
AMEN.
It’s okay to feel emotions. It’s okay, cry and release the pain felt from the emotions you have. God has me at any point and time exactly where I am to be.

Psalm 139
1 You have searched me, LORD,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, LORD, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
19 If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, LORD,
and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

life is messy
far from perfect
embrace it all
be vulnerable
be imperfect
love yourself as you are
grow where you want to be better
reflect take action BE YOU!

CHANGES one new way of doing ONE BABY STEP WILL CREATE IT (Sarah A.G. -one non-negotiable) Einstein- “The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” CHANGING IT UP priority list I’M ON IT self-reflection DOING THE WORK healing from within looking within DISAPPOINTMENTS HUMANITY Luke22 never get hurt or disappointed by a human is impossible. FIND YOUR UNIQUENESS own worth and value. WORK A PLAN [disruptions (is it opening a door for healing) follow through] HEART AND SOUL mind and body IT ALL WORKS TOGETHER health HAPPINESS joy PRESENT gratitude FORGIVENESS peace CHANGE THE NARITATIVES THAT HARM reflect and challenge where they came from. DREAM nothing to do REST HEAL breath in exhale WHAT DO YOU NEED TO FILL UP YOUR CUP? Giving from an empty cup leads to resentment anger ugliness FILL UP YOUR CUP FIRST give from the overflow with joy and happiness READ organize craft bake COOK try new things BAKE walk in the rain PRAY listen to tarot FIND GUIDANCE TO MOVE FORWARD open the world to exciting and beautiful things. CHANGE

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Walk with me awhile – Tina